Suffering from anxiety, hoping Kratom will help me move forward in life. Advice?

I guess here's a brief version of my life story, with my questions at the end. I'm stuck in a rut. For 13 years I was a thriving professional online poker player, but that ship has sailed. Poker as an industry/profession is declining every year in the states and is in general no longer consistent with my family man life style. I should have had a great back-up career as a software developer as I have a BS in comp sci... however, my anxiety is making that challenging to pursue and I'm currently a stay at home Dad by default. Primarily my issue is procrastination, which is a direct result of my anxiety. I had two brief episodes of high anxiety and some mild depression that landed me in therapy. It's helped a ton, but but I'm frustrated that I can't seem to take the first steps to get a career started. I'd like to very cautiously experiment with Kratom. My research so far and led me here. Seems like a good start would be to get a "variety pack" from an reputable online source and try some low dosages. So if there are any vendors/strains that are recommended for anxiety uses, I'd love to get some recommendations.